I have recently been going through some old files and I found quite a few blog posts that I have written throughout the past year, and for one reason or another, I never published them. But now I want to. So throughout my next few posts, some older ones will be peppered through.
March 2019: “There’s a commercial on TV that we see from time to time that shows different families having a great time together at the lake, hiking, camping, laughing, enjoying one another’s company. Brady hates this commercial.
One night after the commercial ended he expressed his dislike for it. I couldn’t help but wonder how he couldn’t like the happiness that was trying to be portrayed (to me it was successfully portrayed). His response was that it gives him anxiety and makes him feel the pressure.
We get 18 summers with our boys that are completely ours. After that, who knows where life is going to take them. If you think about it, 18 really isn’t that big of a number. Heck, Deacon will be 3 in a few weeks and it feels like we just brought him home from the hospital. I’ve heard that if you think time is going by fast, just wait, it only goes by faster and faster.
I want to soak up every single day of the next 18 summers I get with my boys. Laughing, learning, growing. My hope is that they want to spend as much time with us as well. We’ll see how they feel about their ol’ parents in 10 or so years, but I hope and pray with every part of me, that they will feel at home with their mom and dad. That they will feel safe. That they will feel loved. That they will feel like they’re part of something amazing.
Life isn’t easy and I already get anxiety thinking about the hardships and trials that they might face in their lives. I hope they will always know they are not alone and that when they feel like the world has turned its back on them, there are two people who have a unconditional love for them.”
When I came across this post that I had written a year ago, I still feel all the feelings. The boys are another year older, and wow did that year fly by! With the state of our world and country right now, who knows what the rest of this year is going to look like. But we are determined to make the most of this time that we have together and make memories that we will look back on with fondness.
I hope and pray that you are all well at this time and are safe and healthy. I hope that this will all pass soon and we can get back to normal, whatever “normal” is going to look like now. Thanks for being here and we hope that you enjoy following the herd!
-Marcel